| This is killing you | Someone: |
| I know | Me: |
| What are you going to do about it? | Someone: |
| Let it.. | Me: |
 | nowletgoofmyhand : phone number? |
you refuse to even talk to me at all… i would lik o atleast be friends like we agreed on dear… | |
To loose the one girl in your life that you cant live without.
There was this boy that thought everythin was going prfect in his life. He lost sight in reality and began tempting fate without realizing. Once reality caught up to the boy, the only choice he hd was to face it. Like its always said you can run, but you cant hide. The boy tried hiding inside himself,infact he put every ounce of energy he had towards reliving the only memory that kept him sane. In three weeks he had complety managed to brain wfsh himself. He was in denile, there for forced it opon himself to believe she had not left. The boy spend eveyday asking and snooking every only page she had. It was imprinted in his head that she wouldnt say goodbye and just walk out. Each and everyday, Kenzi was every thought he had, and everything around him only lead right back to her. The boy managed to loose sight on what was actually going on in his life. The fact he had lost the one girl that had the ability to stop him dead in his tracks. His life was complete in every aspect down to the most important, his heart only belonged to her. He was on top of the world, knocking through every challenge and problem that crossed his path like he was untouchable.
The feeling and amount of love she had for this boy kept his heart racing, at times it even skipped a few beats. He had become immortal against all evil on earth. He believed no matter who or what came between them there was no chance they could be seperated. What he didnt realize was she would leave. Simply not because of another, but only because of himself. The time had actually come and she did infact tell him her goodbye.
The moment he had lost her put him into a state of my that that cause him to become very ill. He took everythng that had ever went wrong between them and combined it with everything that had been going well plus everythng that was perfect to build a wall inside himself to protect his feelings and thoughts. From the day she left his life he managed to create a reality of his own. Its was set so infact she was right by his side and had never actually left his side. The point he made it so perfect turning every single flaw and problem they ever had around to benefit in his favor. It was a creation to his own world of complete happiness.
A world of complete happiness is a fairytale, who wouldnt love to have the choice to live a life of such detail. There will never be a world of such perfection. A perfect life, problem free, and filled with only happiness can only be defined as destrustion. There is always a catch to everything in life and this boy will finally realize that. To set yourself up for failure is the only thing he has done perfectly. Once again, he made the mistake and messed up again. Now reality has caught up to him only to bite him in the ass. He is completly alone and left deffenceless for life to prove you cant control reality.
Forced to realize she left because he became the one person he always said he wouldnt. He went against his promise to her only to become a monster of his own destrustion. She made him feel like a king, giving him anything and everything he ever wanted. The only problem he had life to good and only took her for granted. Thinking back on everything that had happened and what was still going on finally opened his eyes to realize the way he treated her and what he was puting her through day by day. Now all he felt was hate and only on himself. Had lost he one girl he truly loved with all his heart. He couldnt deal with the fact he was taking complete advantage of her emotions and couldnt realize he was doing it till it was to late. There was only one thing he had left to do, so he wrote her his last letter apopogizing for everything she went through because of him. Atthe same time he was cryng so hard he almost couldnt finih the letter. He explained how much he hated himself and my last words are to you…
P.s. Baby im sorry for being selfesh, I didnt man to put you through anymore pain. I love you with my entire heart, that will never change! You will alays be remembed and have my heart. Please dont ever forget me b. Goodbye my love…
